You Live in Fear
Days you live in fear you’ve spent rehearsing an enumeration: those who got away, first, then the others administered to witness protection programs upstate (for reasons that remain unclear, except that there were hostages). Memorizing means what you are feeling is too familiar. What consumes us, plays with fire? The answer is a kind of animal resisting. You fix the furniture so it appears you have been a good accomplice. The music overhead plays in no recognizable language. Breakfast suggests it’s either time of day. You think eventually the birds will admit to morning, and the bells will be a prayer, and the faint ringing from a church will remind you awake.
Enter through the stairs
the century, the maze in Plaza Center.
The red tracks in the street
the onlookers circle all night
is where they dragged her.
You can’t call it prison if you wanted to be here.
Terror is the thing that happens
when fear ceases to exist,
to those who terrorize, I mean.
I’ll start from the beginning:
The Pleasure Center opens for business
to the untreatable by any known therapies.
The illness: you worry you are missing
your most powerful weapons.
Is every rare case a catastrophe? Is every violence
a tripping point? Are all politics
just theatrics? Primal emotions
are intrinsic and related to sex, says the cleft
the dopamine passes on its way to Check-In.
The equation is a room to hold your wings.